When I was afraid I used to run away from everything
and you know what that taught me?
It taught me I was going to have to deal with that problem
over and over again
till I turned around and finally faced it.
I was going to have to go through the whole pain process again
if I didn't deal with the problem today
deal with the pain now.
It wasn't always pretty
I hated having to face everything everyday with a smile on my face and pep in my step.
But you know what I hated more?
I hated being right back where I was before, crying about the same thing
I was crying about 3 months ago.
I hated being in the same exact pain
I was in forever like a non-stop dump truck.
I couldn't handle that I would go insane
I could handle sitting in the fire and putting it out today
I could handle these burns right now
in lieu of hell forever.
So there I am with a bucket of water
taming these flames today,
learning how to handle the smaller fires faster, learning fire prevention,
learning how to not run from fires
and start facing them.
Acting faster, acting stronger because here’s the secret
if you are in pain or the "fire" and you run you're still going to be stuck
in a house on fire.
There is no exit to this house on fire. Damage control, put it out rebuild make your house a home.